I sit down tonight to write this blog with eager anticipation to share what the Lord has been doing in my heart and my life. After months of prayer and discussions with trusted Christian friends and others in ministry, I now feel the liberty to share how God is moving in my heart and what that looks like for my future.
Several months ago, I began sensing the Lord doing something new in my heart. I wasn’t sure exactly what it was, however, so I approached it with a lot of prayer.
While searching my heart and asking the Lord to reveal any selfish or unrighteous motives, I began asking Him how long He wanted me to stay in Haiti.
When I first decided to move to Haiti, people often asked how long I would live here. I almost always (and even after moving) answered that my plan was for a year, but that I was listening to God for what His plan might be. Everyone joked that there was no way I was going to stay for only one year, and I agreed that I felt the same way. It was hard for me to imagine leaving after only a year. I didn’t know the logistics of what that would look like… the additional money that would require, the arrangements I would have to make back home – including for my dog Wrigley – etc., but I was completely open to the Lord showing me that He had a different plan for me, even if that included staying for several years.
As I continued to pray, I was wise to always answer that the length of my time here was dependent on whatever the Lord showed me. Because when He did reveal what this “new thing” in my heart was, I realized that the opposite of what everyone, including myself, thought was true.
Instead of revealing to me that He has more work for me here, the Lord showed me that the work He sent me to do is nearing completion.
The therapy clinic has been created, filled with therapy equipment, and staffed with two Haitians who are currently receiving training to carry out therapy services. Children who reside on the myLIFEspeaks campus as well as children from the community receive therapy services daily and are growing and achieving their highest potential.
Additionally, with the Lord’s guidance, I began a program named “Three Strands” (Ecclesiastes 4:12). Through this program, I taught several women to crochet for profit, and they are now making beautiful creations that allow them to be self-sustaining. We are in the process of forming ongoing partnerships with businesses in the States as well as in Haiti that will enable us to add more women to the program and create additional sustainable jobs.
In addition to these tangible manifestations of the Lord’s work, I also consider the non-tangible ways that He has worked in and through my life here. I was able to play a role in Frantzky’s rescue and new family with myLIFEspeaks; demonstrate what it looks like to love someone different than you; show a village that children with special needs have value; build friendships; and share Christ’s love with others over and over. Most importantly, He allowed me to experience His presence and fullness of joy in a way I had never experienced before.
All these things considered, I feel very confident that I have accomplished what the Lord brought me here to do, and I strongly sense that my time here is nearing an end. I admit that I am surprised that He has worked through my heart this way, but I shouldn’t be. James 4:13-15 states, “Come now, you who say ‘Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there… instead you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.’“ Therefore, I do not want to be arrogant and believe that my way is higher than the Lord’s. I trust that He has a plan for me and that includes a new journey beginning in June.
It is admittedly a bit scary for me to face the reality of moving back to the States. At this point, I have no idea what that looks like for me. A part of me dreads re-entering American culture and sometimes I can’t bear the thought of leaving my precious family here. But on the other hand, I am confident that the Lord has exciting things in store for my future, and, just as I trusted Him when I began this journey here in Haiti, I trust Him to bring this chapter of my story to completion as He opens new doors of adventure for me.
I am so thankful for the hundreds of people who have supported, encouraged, and loved on me during this amazing time in my life. I feel like I’ve been so blessed as I have been able to witness firsthand the lives that have been changed because of all the people that came together to make this mission possible. If you are reading this, there’s a great chance that you are one of these people that has been obedient to the Lord through your support and generosity. I hope that your life has also been forever changed and that you will never forget the great things that God has done.
Thank you for your continued love and support as I continue working passionately for the Lord during every precious last day of my time here… and for sharing my excitement as each day brings me closer to this new adventure the Lord has for me!